For 2+ weeks, I’ve been having heart palpitations. It seemed to have been triggered by a traumatizing incident at work, but maybe it was incidental? Maybe it’s stress or maybe it’s A-fib?
Today is the first day that my heart didn’t flutter, skip, palpitate, thump or punch my ribcage. It felt good. I felt a little bit of anxious angst, but it wasn’t overwhelming.
Saturday it only did it a couple of times and then Sunday was business as usual. Saturday …. I went with my boyfriend to meet his new grandbaby. I can’t think of much else that is more calming and relaxing than holding a sleeping newborn. Second to this is riding in my boyfriend’s convertible with the top down; we did this on the way home on that warm and sunny day. Then the rain came. On the highway where there was no shoulder. Myth Busters was right; if you keep driving, the rain goes OVER the topless part of the convertible. 🙂 We pulled over and got drenched. I laughed. I haven’t laughed like that in eons, it seems. Third relaxing thing? Taking my son to the lake. He frolics in the water and I can sit there and listen to the birds and watch the sun dip goldenly beyond the darkening Berkshire Hills. I did all of that on Saturday and my body was rewarded handsomely. Why didn’t I think of that sooner? Doing something relaxing?
Shoot! I still have to call the doctor and see what, if anything, came of the Holter Monitor. They haven’t called. People have told me it could be a week.
On top of this, I don’t feel lymey. I’m not tired. It rained today and my knees didn’t forecast it. No headache. No muscle fatigue. No nerve pain (ohhhh, thank God for that). It’s all good.
I found a small deer tick crawling on my arm this afternoon. A black speck in motion in my peripheral vision caught my attention. I crushed him violently between my figernails, grinding them back and forth. He hadn’t burrowed in. What luck. I do, however, still have Ceftin and my specialist says if I ever find a tick in me, to take two of them right away.
I saw my boyfriend briefly and got a phenomenal hug. My son is kind of sick so he’s on the couch, mellowing. The sun is out. The rain is drying.
What a gift today is.